Have you ever lost your voice? I’m not talking about the kind of lost voice that can be remedied with some hot tea containing the perfect balance of lemon and honey. I’m talking about that voice deep inside. The voice that pesters you when you don’t want to hear her, but then seems to burrow down deep when you need her most. Sometimes she disappears altogether or she’s so quiet you can barely detect a sound. Sometimes I think her switch was shifted to Spanish mode, and I can only understand every few words; the ones I remember from tenth-grade Spanish class.
I’ve lost my voice for many reasons over the years.
I’ve lost her in the moves. A couple years back I think she was labeled with a green moving sticker and not a yellow one like the rest of our boxes.
I’ve lost her in raising small children, parenting solo more often than not. I mean, come on, it’s really hard to avoid accidentally throwing her into the Diaper Genie along with that 8th diaper of the day.
I’ve lost her because someone louder made me feel small so I squashed her, allowing someone else to be heard. Have you ever done that? Ugh, I hate to say I’ve lowered mine on more occasions than I’d like to admit.
In reflection, I realize I’ve been slowly losing my voice for years. I’ve lost her in moving. I’ve lost her in raising small children as a stay-at-home-mom. I’ve lost her in fear. But recently, I heard her. I heard her loud, and I heard her proud.
I have a voice. She’s not lost after all. She’s just been laying low. She’s been growing quietly to reveal herself, stronger, louder, than ever before. She’s been developing into a voice that represents a woman who can do anything she sets her mind to. She’s learned to be a force, but one that also knows when and how to listen.
MAVAN has altered my identity, and in turn, has revealed my voice. It was easy for me to be lost in my roles as Mommy, Marine Wife, and even Woman in America. Now, I’m a Mavan, and I’m discovering, once again, that I’m Anna too.
If you turn on any news channel today, you are likely to witness people using their voices. I hear people telling personal truths. I hear people fighting for change. I hear them. And I hear you. We at MAVAN, hear you. We’re here to help military spouses find a voice they may have lost, albeit temporarily. We’re here to match these motivated military spouses with impact-driven professionals looking to make a positive mark on the world. We’re here to facilitate a community; a community of people vocally supporting one another. Come join us! And be loud! We want to hear you!